Ever since I got pregnant I haven't been able to eat healthy. I only get nauseous at dinner time and have not thrown up (yet). I am grateful that its just an hour or two of nausea in the evening....BUT all of my normal foods I can't eat. I am talking everything I usually LOVE to cook and eat, I can't even smell. No broccoli, cauliflower, squash, no kale....NOTHING HEALTHY.... This child must be Leo's because all I am craving is sweets and junk food. hah. I had been gluten free on and off for years, but strictly the last four months before I got pregnant. But now I am craving gluten! I want bread and pasta and cereal... What is this child doing to me?! So I caved in, I realized that maybe my body is just completely stocked up on all the vitamins and minerals from all my favorite vegetables, and perhaps this child needs a little exposure to some gluten. So I slowly started introducing gluten back into my diet and it's going well. I try to be sure it's organic and I don't have it with every single meal. But once a day if I am wanting a burrito in a flour tortilla or something that may have a little gluten in it, I let it be. I don't plan to keep doing this for very long, but a little gluten exposure seems to be what I am suppose to be giving to the baby. Another reminder that sometimes everything in moderation is ok. Speaking of, why do I want red wine? I probably have drank a total of ten times in the past year. And that means a glass of wine or a little sake with dinner. There was a night or two in Bali last spring that I had more than one drink, but really I have barely drank alcohol in the past 7 years. It's easy for me to go six months or longer without a drop of it. And now I want a glass of wine...or even sake? Upon thinking about this, I came to the realization that Leo and I have never drank together. Occasionally he may have a beer and one or two times I had a little sake with some sushi, but we never have both had alcohol in our system at the same time. I have never been in a relationship where I haven't drank with my partner at least occasionally. And I am pretty proud to say that we never needed any alcohol to enjoy each others company. We have been together literally 24/7 since a week after we met, minus a few days I flew home to go to the beach with my family last June. When you travel in a car, live in a tent, and know when each other is going to poop in the woods or pee behind a tree, shower together in a lake or river, and really never leave each others sight for more than an hour for months straight...well let's just say it accelerates the relationship. You learn very quickly the ins and outs of one another. There is nothing to hide, because there is nowhere to hide. We formed a foundation that was as real as it could get and so we decided that it was exactly what we both desired in a life partner. And also accepted that we felt like we were supposed to birth some babies together and raise a family. The conversation about starting a family came sort of out of the blue. I was looking at my google calendar and saw an old entry from a manifesting class I took last fall. One assignment had us put on our calendar at least three BIG DREAMS with very specific dates. I already had one come true. I manifested over $2000 in cash within a week to get me to Bali. I set my intention on going to Bali Spirit Fest in September and put it on my calendar for March 2016. In December 2015, I looked at plane tickets to see how much they cost, and investigated an approximate budget to travel for up to three weeks. I decided that to travel with freedom to enjoy some yummy foods and extra outings with my dear friend Lindsay, that I would be really safe if I had $2000. Well, that was a lot of money...especially since tickets were on super sale at the time and if I wanted to lock in that cheap price I would need the money asap. The following week I showed up at my yoga and massage studio. When I opened the door there was an envelope with my name on it. It was thick and I had no idea what it could be. I opened it and read the card: "Thanks for all you bring to our community. Here is some money for your ventures. - Like Minded Folk". And then I removed the cash...a lot of it. I handed it to my sister (who was working for me) and she ran her fingers through so quickly due to her previous banking experience. "Two thousand dollars?!!!!!" she said. "WHAT?!" I responded, " Thank you, thank you, thank you God." I dropped to my knees in thanks as tears filled my eyes. I couldn't believe it. In less than one week I had the money for Bali. And my first date from the Manifesting assignment was becoming a reality. I was going to actually be in Bali during the dates that were on my calendar from September. And within one week of revisiting that intention, all the money flowed to me. (Oh I also manifested some $700 in cash a week or two before that...I felt like I was spending lots of money on business finances and didn't have anything left at the end of each pay check to pay myself. I left work one evening and claimed "Time to attract some cash abundance". I got home that night and my mom told me she had cashed in some random life insurance policy and each of her children got $700 cash. So back to making babies...I also had put on my manifesting google calendar that I would be with my life partner and expecting our first child in April 2017. At the time I placed this on my calendar it made absolutely no sense to me. I still wasn't convinced I wanted to be a mother, and although at the time I picked a date that seemed REALLY far away, I had no idea where it came from. Why this date and why would I think I would be ready for a child then? But I put it on the calendar. And ten months later I saw the date on my calendar. I exclaimed "Oh my gosh!", and realized Leo was sitting right there. He asked what was wrong, and I shared with him that I just found something in my calendar and I couldn't believe it could be something that may really happen by then. This led to us discussing children. Is he the life partner I dreamed of? Was I the life partner he dreamed of? We decided we definitely wanted children together, and that it was something that probably would happen next year. But two days later when our friends were riding in the back of the car and started asking us when we were going to make them Uncles/Aunties, we just looked at each other in shock. How on Earth did they know we had began discussing this? We just let them talk about it, and in the following weeks we discussed more in private. We felt it was something that we absolutely were supposed to do together. So, we threw all caution to the wind and trusted in Divine timing. We thought maybe in six, or eight, or even twelve months it would become a reality. Little did we know, that reality would be in our laps in less than three weeks. And that google calendar date of April 2017 was reality...we are expecting our little one in May 2017...so yes in April I will be with my life partner, expecting our first child. Be careful what you manifest folks. ;) So here I sit, hungry (minus the hours of 5-7pm)...trying to figure out what I can possibly eat since all my go to healthy meals aren't even able to be in the vicinity of my nose. Guess it looks like I am eating some cereal...or maybe pasta...but definitely not the amazing salmon and veggies meal that Leo just spent the last hour making for me. I definitely can not eat that. :(
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